Two years ago, at the age of thirty two, Ulrika found her life hitting rock bottom. She was facing a situation every parent dreads - her unborn child had been diagnosed with a life threatening condition. And what's more, she was facing it alone. She already had a son to look after, and a demanding career, but now her responsibilites were even greater than she had imagined. How would she cope, who had she become, and who had she been to start with?.

As a way of trying to understand herself and her life, Ulrika started to write. It was a difficult, sometimes humilating, process as she faced up to past mistakes. But she also re-discovered many amazing experiences from which there were powerful lessons to be learned. It is a story in turn, funny, sad, rude, surprising - even shocking. But it's not just Ulrika's story - there are many aspects with which we will all identify.

Read by the author. 4.5 hours on 3 cassettes